"No Floods" (The REAL fans know what i'm talking about.) I literally LIVE that song everyday.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
I was working the float with Mystique Summers, from the second season of LOGO's "RuPaul's Drag Race". I was actually surprised by how funny, smart, and just plain down-to-earth she was. Its always interesting meeting people, from Reality TV, away from the cameras. Anyway, when the parade started, it felt as if my heart was going to fly right out of my chest. But, seeing millions of my fellow Gays, Lesbians, Transgenders, and Bisexuals cheering us on simply took away all my anxiety.
Even though wearing a skin-tight silver body suit is not the most comfortable thing to wear on a sunny near 90° day, I had a greatest time of my life. With everyone cheering, wanting photos, and showing me so much love, I really felt proud to be apart of our colorful Gay
community. Seeing all of us coming together to create such a powerful positive energy really inspired me. This was our day, and if we really want to, we could rule the world. I felt as if I was actually apart of making History.
I always understood the reason for the Gay Pride festivities, but, that day I finally GOT IT.
I guess that shy little Gay boy, who moved to the Windy City all but five years ago, has come a long way.
"Liberty Walk" - Miley Cyrus
"A Piece Of Sky" - Barbra Streisand
"Clap Your Hands" - Sia
Friday, June 25, 2010
Checkout my album review for Christina Aguilera's album, "Bionic".
Here's a sample:
...“Bionic” opens with a title track of the same name. This first song
serves as an introduction to Christina’s new sound and direction for
the rest of the album. “Not Myself Tonight”, the second track and
first single, not only does a great job of showing us the new grown up
Xtina, but the lyrics also makes a statement about this album sound as
a whole. “Woohoo”, the third track, and upcoming single, is...
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Just over two years ago, I started venturing into the Gayborhood. Now, years later, I'm so gay that I'm actually going to be in the Chicago Gay Pride Parade. Yes, this weekend, June 27, I will be performing(dancing) on one of the floats in the parade!! I scored a modeling gig with "PrettyBoy Magazine". I'm so excited!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I was online, the other day, checking my inbox on Adam-4-Adam, when I saw yet another email from a horny older guy in his mid forties. For a while now, I've been thinking about the whole "age" thing when it comes to the Gay community, Gay men in particular. Being the keen social observer that I am, I've noticed a particular pattern where older Gays eroticse the younger generation of Gays. I've witnessed it first-hand, both over the Internet and in social settings. I might not be into older men, but that doesn't stop them from sending me emails via whatever dating site I might be using. In any given week, I receive at least fifteen messages all from men between the ages of 35 to 55.
I got to thinking about my generation of gay men, "Generation Y". Will we share the same fate of "Generation X"? Will we find ourselves still going to "twink" bars and looking for "love", on the Internet, well into our forties and fifties? I would hope not. Seeing that we have the reality of Gay Marriage in our grasps. But, sometimes I just wonder.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
I don't know who I am, I don't know where I'm going, I don't know what my "purpose" is yet, and I'm still trying to figure out who the "real Me" is. When I was younger, I had all these visions and ideas about who I wanted to be, where I wanted to go, and what my life would be about. But, it seems like reality isn't exactly matching up with my imagination. I mean, it took me THIS long to finally embrace my own personal brand of "weirdness", and realize that what I always mistook for "weird" was just my own personal brand of creativity.
On the other hand, it does feel kind of freeing to have the flexibility to just "blow in the wind" and not become nailed down into being just one thing.
Maybe this is who I'm supposed to be after all...the "Tabula Rasa".
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Last Saturday, I had the pleasure of going to my first "industry" event, at Enclave, in downtown Chicago, where I met one of my favorite people in the entertainment business...Aubrey O'Day! Yes, I met Aubrey from Danity Kane! We shook hands, hugged, and took photos! I'm sorry, I'm having one of those "fag attacks" right now. You know, its like a heart attack, but happens whenever a Gay man so much as shares the same air as one of his favorite divas. Get it now?
This was also my first time going to Enclave, mainly because its a "straight" nightclub. So, I was a little new to both the "industry" thing as well as the "straight club" thing. Plus, my buddies "M" and "G" didn't want to come, so I was flying solo. But, there were a few "industry gays" there too, so I didn't feel too lost. Either way, it was a good way to get my feet wet for these kind of events with red carpets, photogs, and other professionals. It also opened my eyes to the other side of being a single twenty-something living in the big city, and the fact that life does actually exists outside of my Gayborhood.
The club was beautiful, as if they had taken a piece of Los Angeles and dropped it in the middle of downtown Chicago. I could definitely see how West coast Celebrities can feel at home when partying at Enclave. The burlesque show, hosted by Miss O'Day, featured Vegas performances by La Couture, ..., all capped off with an act from "Peep Show" staring Aubrey. The girls were absolutely amazing, and had the crowd completely mesmerized, including myself. I couldn't even take my Gay eyes away from this performance art. Seeing the burlesque performance also inspired me to find my inner "Showman".
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I'll be back to posting before this coming weekend.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Its weird how a simple yes or no question can be so complex at the same time. Not only is it complex, its a loaded question at that. I hate loaded questions. Some loaded questions put me that mode called "your damned if you do, your damned if you don't". The guy that in currently
dating, on a casual basis, asked me the above question, last night, via a phone conversation.
He asked if I was "ready for love", and after I got on my invisible soapbox and read him the riot act for asking me such a loaded question, I said "I don't know". After that, the conversation shifted, and I once again had to pull out my soapbox to give him my half-feminist half-militant speech on how I feel about relationships in general. Basically, I told him that relationships are institutions of control, I would be damned if I ever allowed another man to have control over me, and that I like having the freedom to do what/who ever I please. I was being honest. Some days, I wish that I were in one of those "loving" relationships. But, other days, I'm glad to have my freedom as a single man in his twenties.
Once upon a time, I did honestly want to fall in "love" with the man of my dreams and have my first and maybe last boyfriend. I lived in the fairy tale delusion that if I found my "Prince Charming", that his "love" would solve all of my problems and clean up the mess known as Me. Well, the Universe bitch slapped into reality. I found him, fell in "love" with him, he broke my heart, and he ended up choosing to be with someone who's less complicated than me. I personally don't feel like going through that experience all over again. I licked my wounds, grew
up, and now I'm smart enough to know not to let it happen again. Its kind of like the verse from that Rihanna song, "Rehab", "...And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you...Don't even recognize the ways you hurt me do you?".
Is anyone ever REALLY ready for "love"?