Thursday, May 13, 2010


For the past few months, or better yet, since around last Fall, I have been pretty much on "auto pilot" so to speak. Well, now that I think about it, its sooo NOT "auto pilot"...I do THAT all the time at school and mostly at my dead-end job. I think the word "lost" best describes what I've been since last fall. Yeah, I'm just...lost.

I don't know who I am, I don't know where I'm going, I don't know what my "purpose" is yet, and I'm still trying to figure out who the "real Me" is. When I was younger, I had all these visions and ideas about who I wanted to be, where I wanted to go, and what my life would be about. But, it seems like reality isn't exactly matching up with my imagination. I mean, it took me THIS long to finally embrace my own personal brand of "weirdness", and realize that what I always mistook for "weird" was just my own personal brand of creativity.

On the other hand, it does feel kind of freeing to have the flexibility to just "blow in the wind" and not become nailed down into being just one thing.

Maybe this is who I'm supposed to be after all...the "Tabula Rasa".


Saturday, May 8, 2010

Ask Me Anything...

And, I do mean ANYTHING!


Wednesday, May 5, 2010

About Last Night: Burlesque With Aubrey O'Day

Last Saturday, I had the pleasure of going to my first "industry" event, at Enclave, in downtown Chicago, where I met one of my favorite people in the entertainment business...Aubrey O'Day! Yes, I met Aubrey from Danity Kane! We shook hands, hugged, and took photos! I'm sorry, I'm having one of those "fag attacks" right now. You know, its like a heart attack, but happens whenever a Gay man so much as shares the same air as one of his favorite divas. Get it now?

This was also my first time going to Enclave, mainly because its a "straight" nightclub. So, I was a little new to both the "industry" thing as well as the "straight club" thing. Plus, my buddies "M" and "G" didn't want to come, so I was flying solo. But, there were a few "industry gays" there too, so I didn't feel too lost. Either way, it was a good way to get my feet wet for these kind of events with red carpets, photogs, and other professionals. It also opened my eyes to the other side of being a single twenty-something living in the big city, and the fact that life does actually exists outside of my Gayborhood.

The club was beautiful, as if they had taken a piece of Los Angeles and dropped it in the middle of downtown Chicago. I could definitely see how West coast Celebrities can feel at home when partying at Enclave. The burlesque show, hosted by Miss O'Day, featured Vegas performances by La Couture, ..., all capped off with an act from "Peep Show" staring Aubrey. The girls were absolutely amazing, and had the crowd completely mesmerized, including myself. I couldn't even take my Gay eyes away from this performance art. Seeing the burlesque performance also inspired me to find my inner "Showman".