So, I've been thinking/maranating on something. Which, by the way, is NOT always a good thing, in my case. I have the slight tendacy to over-think certain things (LOL).
Anyway, I've been thinking about whatever it is that's going on between myself and "Cool", and wheather or not I can keep going on with him. Let the Theripy Session begin!
Here's what's on my mind:
1. Our lil' first "date" or whatever was nice. Just that...NICE! Or, more like alright! NOT great! NOT magical! NOT romantic!...NICE!! I always assumed that my first date, with a guy, whould be A LOT MORE!!
2. There's no "zsa zsa zsu" between us. Things are just...REGULAR!! He doesn't look at me the way I want him to (with seduction/lust in his eyes). We don't have that "thing" that people are supposed to have when they first start off.
3. Its obvious that things arnet "popping off" organically between us. And, I'll be damned if I develop the pattern of having to ALWAYS force shit, make plans happen, and make ALL the effort in a relationship that's one-sided!...I'm not THAT desperate to keep a man. Especially seeing that I'm used to being alone anyway.
4. "Cool" flaked on me this weekend. I wanted to spend some time together, on Saturday....He flaked on ME (oh HELL no!...I KNOW this child didn't just? Uh Uh!)! What kinda fuckery is he!?!
SideBar: Momz didn't raise her child to be lead around, by the nose, by ANYBODY...Like a damn puppy-dog! THAT'S another pattern I don't want to fall into. If ANYTHING, it gonna be the OTHER-WAY-AROUND (LOL)!
Here's two of my favorite quotes:
1. "There are many Fishes/Men in The Rainbow Sea."
-Rocafella07
... I just started realizing this about a month ago, when I actually decided
to open my eyes and notice what was going on around me (LOL).
2. "Why do I stress a man, when there's so many bigger things at hand?"
-Amy Winehouse
... THIS is soooo TRUE!! I have much bigger things to do, than to stress over some guy...Seriously!
;-)
9 comments:
awwww don't give up hope just yet... sometimes things go a little slower than we like. Just wait it ou for a lil bit... Now in 2 weeks if you're still feeling the same way, then fuck him!
Could it be that your expectation was too high? Wanting much but doing little to initiate action.
Why not give it another try with "cool" and see where things go on the second date. Communication might fix the situation. Whether it is to continue or end the whole dating thing between you two.
Don't sweat it, Roc. Once you start shitting on him, then, that's when he will fall in line. Mark my words. Or when you find a new distraction, which ever comes first.
Shit I say u give me another chance since u never know what could be going on! Maybe he is nervous or maybe u r excepting too much from the 1st couple of encounters...But I could be wrong! But what is harm, at least u will get another interesting blog if nothing else, lol!
You are overthinking this thing with "Cool". Just let it flow and enjoy the time you spent with him. If I had learned that lesson back when I was 18 or 19, I would probably be married with kids by now.
Well, Fuzzy-Wuzzy & TDRT, you guys are correct!
As much as I told myself NOT to have any expectations and to let this "thing" (whatever it is) start off as a "blank slate"...I realized that, subconceously (or deep down), I did have a lot of expections. If not about "Cool", than about how I wanted my FIRST date (and romance) to be...Which lead to me putting wayyyyy too much on THIS.
Thanx for the advice guys!!
;-)
you already know what i think...
Don't sweat it. Learn from it and keep it moving. It's a hair flip, really. You just flip your hair and you cool again.
Oh and thanks for the email, btw.
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